—Empty-Mind, Stilling Thoughts and Stopping Internal Dialogue—
This article is on the subject of empty-mind “no-mind” meditation, and slowing (or even stopping) the internal chatter and internal dialogue of the mind— all as a result of meditation practice. It is a tribute to what meditating has brought me in terms of practicing mindfulness in day-to-day activities. To me, this is the point of meditation, which in my case is sitting meditation (as far as types of meditation go). I began taking meditation seriously only a few years ago and have seen steady growth, personal empowerment and a tangible peace translate into everyday life.
I had an experience the other day that I would like to share. I found myself at a social gathering. It was a birthday party for a girl turning five held at a public place. There were a number of adults there also. It struck me about half way through the party how incredibly relaxed I was. Of course none of the kids were mine. I’m sure this helped. What I found interesting is how little I was thinking, if at all.
The kids were fascinating. The parents were fascinating. Let’s face it—I was fascinated. I participated in conversations. I laughed when something funny happened. I was involved fully, but I was doing almost no thinking. I found myself remembering how awful this would have been for me in the past. I would have been thinking up a storm. I would have been worried about what others were thinking. I would have been an absolute mess.
I began to appreciate this difference and how far I have come. How had I managed to move out of that old space? What secret had I learned? The truth is that it has all been due to meditation. At some point I just gave up worrying having realized the absolute absurdity of it. What is the point after all? Nothing is going to ever happen the way we imagine it anyway. We can only prepare to be utterly unprepared.
If instead we prepare by not preparing we will be totally prepared—for there will be no prevailing judgments in our way. We will be free to be spontaneous and honestly responsive. So somehow in the last however many years I have managed to integrate this insight into my every day behavior. The contrast between this present state and my past is nothing short of amazing.
I remember the past very well. I remember encountering individuals who appeared to feel as comfortable then as I feel now. I remember how terrified I was of them. They were obviously capable of saying and doing anything. As this occurred to me I felt compassion and respect for where others could potentially be in terms of this process.
I also wanted to just enjoy the new level of relaxation. I was determined to thoroughly appreciate the work I have done on myself—or rather, the work that has been “done on me” by nature and circumstance. I am so grateful for awareness and comprehension. All the struggling and wriggling around of the psyche to let light simply be light—to let light join with all light. It is the light that is doing all the work.
Let the light in. Let the light out. Let the light shine. Let. Allow. Be. Express. All this without thinking—without being overwhelmed by worries or concerns over what might happen a second—a minute—an hour from now. To learn how to let go and trust that we are in the hands of a beautiful and wondrous all-pervasive, all-loving awareness is very sweet indeed.
Related articles include Ramana Maharshi, his ‘”I” Thought’ method of meditation, and non-doing practices.
